>school supplies

>it is amazing how quickly life can go from being really fun to really busy in a matter of moments. just an hour ago i was playing Lion King on SEGA with my buddy Dan. Then here i am finding out that i have to pay rent and tuition, pack my stuff, finalize my schedule, get a new job, buy books and go back to Manhattan. talk about a buzzkill.

just as my “break” begins to slow down and i get a chance to relax for a day it picks back up almost immediately into a hurricane of errands/payments. there is just so much stress that comes with a new semester. way too much work. seriously. life should not need to be so busy.

but one thing that always seems to bring a bit of relief is school supply shopping. today i went to Office Max and picked up five graph spiral notebooks, two folders and some batteries and as i left the register i felt a slight sense of calmness. school supplies just have this crisp organized feeling about them that makes me feel so prepared. i leave that store ready to destroy any course that steps in my way. i’m organized and motivated and B’s are not an option.

but i know the moment i get to class the first day i’m going to open up my graph spirals and write “Linguistic Anthropology” or “Religion in American History” at the top and i’ll want it to look so perfect so that it would match the crispness of the unused spirals. but thats just not possible. so i’ll probably erase it and write it again, trying to land the perfect lettering, but in the process i’ll smudge up the first try and it’ll just make it worse and by the end of my first class period i will quickly remember what a poor student i truly am. awesome.

but for now, i’ll savor the organization and go to bed because i have a lot of junk to accomplish in the morning.

stupid school, always raining on my parade.

-ap.

>passion unpacking part two of some

>track 5 on A Collision (3 + 4 = 7) from David Crowder*Band is entitled “Foreverandever Etc…” it incorporates whistling and a keytar and is a truly childish song. I’ve always skipped over this song on the cd because it really never fancied me much. Crowder’s lyrics are typically so spiritual and genius, and, to be honest, this song didn’t match up.

so i’m outside with 24,999 other college students from every state in the US, freezing my butt cheeks off on the 3rd of January, wishing i was back in the hotel room so i could watch LSU kick the crap out of Notre Dame, and Crowder pulls out the keytar. and i’m totally not excited about it. don’t get me wrong, the keytar is tight, but i have the cd and i know how childish the ensuing song is going to be.

there is one point in the song (where the song gets its name i assume) when the lyrics break down into a not-too-difficult-to-follow sequence that goes something like “i am Yours forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and yadda yadda yadda yadda you get it.” the quintessential moment of childish worship music banter erupted amongst the mass of 20-somethings, and i felt dumb.

yet on Wednesday night at about 11:00 PM Eastern Standard Time in Atlanta, Georgia, Crowder pulled out his keytar and played this song outdoors between the Georgie Dome and the Phillips Arena and a wave of understanding flowed over me. the song appears childish because that is exactly how it is supposed to appear. i think a lot of people, myself included, can get wrapped up in the theology and the politics and the issues of Christianity and we can sometimes miss the unbelievable relationship we have with our Father. our Father. we are little sons and daughters of God and i think sometimes we try and make ourselves bigger and better and miss what an incredible reality this is.

we have a loving Father in Heaven who cares about our every move. He loves us dearly and i know i forget that.

track five may be fruity, but Crowder wanted it that way. because that is what joy in our Heavenly Father truly looks like. we are children of God who jump and scream and dance in his presence. we giggle and squirm and laugh with Him.

here are the lyrics:

Love so incredible to know
It's never gonna go
Never gonna go

Love too impossible and true
For anyone but You
For anyone but You

I think I'm on the brink of something large
Maybe like the breaking of a dawn
Or maybe like a match being lit
Or the sinking of a ship
Letting go gives a better grip

I'm finding everything I'll ever need
By giving up gaining everything
Falling for You for eternity
Right here at Your feet
Where I wanna be
I am Yours

Love so indelible to know
You're never gonna go
You're never gonna go

Love too unthinkable and true
For anyone but You
For anyone but You

Maybe like a match being lit
Or the sinking of a ship
Letting go gives a better grip

I'm finding everything I'll ever need
By giving up gaining everything
Falling for You for eternity
Right here at Your feet
Where I wanna be
I am Yours

Forever and ever and ever and ever
And ever and ever and ever and ever... (repeat)

falling for you for eternity. right here at your feet. where i want to be. i am Yours forever and ever and ever…….

how cool is that? childish? maybe, but a legitimate thrill in our Father? definitely. so beautiful.

and suddenly i went from being my pessimistic critical self to the 25,000th dancer in the crowd. i realized the truth of it and how wonderful and joyous this song is. we are children of God lets act like it. lets go outside and jump in a pile of leaves with Him, or lets all go sledding with Him, or lets all go swimming with Him.

he is our Dad and our Papa.

how incredible to know. how impossible and true.
i am Yours.

-ap.

>john mayer and spring 2007

>i must admit, i initially refused to like john mayer, and as his stock rose in popularity i became stubborn and refused to give in. and here i am three or four years later loving his stuff. i bought “heavier things” a couple weeks ago and i’m slowly working my way into it track by track. so far i’m a big fan, much bigger than i expected to be. i used to not like him cause i thought he breathed instead of sang, but the more i listen the more i love it. i’m looking forward to picking up some of his other stuff and seeing if i’m equally as pleased.

i’d also like to take time in this post to apologize to anyone i childishly dissed on for liking john mayer. he’s quality and i am sorry.

the only thing i dont like about him now is the billboard of him in atlanta. he very much resembled Edward Scissorhands which very much creeped me out as a child. i saw it on TBS one night at a sleepover and i had nightmares for a month. bad news for sure. not that appearance really means anything to me..i’m a david crowder fan too.

in other news, classes start again on thursday. isn’t that a treat? here’s what i think i’m taking:

Philosophy 301: History of Modern Philosophy
Anthropology 220: Linguistic Anthropology
History 522: Religion in American History
Philosophy 340: Theories of Knowledge and Reality
English 680: Topics in Dr. Suess

we’ll see how that goes. who knows.

-ap.

>kc chiefs at indy colts

>so the chiefs play today, which is shocking really. four teams had a chance to make the playoffs last week with a win at home: bengals, broncos, titans, chiefs. and if any of the other three teams on the list won then they took the chiefs’ spot in the playoffs. but kansas city’s luck changed that day and we’re in and they’re out. haha. the broncos didn’t make it.

but, as is becoming the norm in the playoffs, the chiefs meet the colts first. the chiefs have played no other team in the post season since 1996, and we haven’t beat the colts in the playoffs yet. there was the Lin Elliot game and the-game-with-no-punting. stupid stupid stupid.

but this year is different, or so i like to think, because for the first time it is the Colts who have the better record and are playing at home. we’re the underdogs and can’t “blow it” this year. they’re expected to lose, so they have something to prove.

and this year is also different because the chiefs don’t have a complete liability. in 1996 we had the best defense in the NFL and in 2003 we had the best offense in the NFL. this year KC has the number 16 offense and the number 16 defense. we probably don’t deserve to even be in the playoffs because we are an all around average team, but at least we are an all around team. no serious flaws and no serious screw ups/Lin Elliots.

and this year we have some guy named Larry Johnson who ran for 1789 yards this season. half man, half beast, or “The Centaur” as Mitch Holtus (voice of the Chiefs, 101.1 KCFX) calls him. Indianapolis boasts the worst rushing defense in the NFL giving up 173 yards per game, and Larry Johnson ought to have a field day. i’m predicting 197 yards and 2 touchdowns for the Centaur.

however, Indianapolis has arguably the best quarterback to ever play the game. Peyton Manning is a freak, so that is obviously an issue. if the Chiefs can keep him off the field and if LJ runs the ball like he should then the Chiefs should make a game out of this one. so that having been said…the edge goes to…

when the Colts pass: Colts.
when the Chiefs pass: Colts.
when the Colts run: Chiefs.
when the Chiefs run: Chiefs.
special teams: Chiefs.
coaching: Colts.

overall? who knows. but i think the Chiefs have something to prove here.
so since i’m on meds and thinking optimistically…

Chiefs 31-24.

-ap.

ps: i think tony dungy and herm edwards could be cousins/brothers/related somehow. they look so much alike. yikes.

EDIT: the chiefs offense is apparently worthless. my love is dwindling.

>passion unpacking part one of some

>this will more than likely be the first of a handful of passion-unpacking-posts. i got back last night around 10:30 from the Passion Conference in Atlanta. i went last year and it was enormously life-altering. this year it was a little different. not better or worse, still awesome and life-altering, but different still.

last year i went to Passion needing an eye opening experience. a swift Jesus-kick to the face if you will. not that i have it all together this year, because i most assuredly do not, but i have matured significantly in the past year and the “boom” from last year seemed slightly lacking this time. however, it made up for it in other areas.

last year i went for the music. i wanted to hear Crowder basically, but this year i went searching for a couple nuggets of knowledge to come away with. since this is passion though these nuggets manifested themselves in the form of boulders instead. i was hit with two major topics on this trip, discovering humility and reaching the unreached people groups of the world.

humility is something i’ve been fervently trying to master for years now. Beth Moore spoke on humility this year and had, as expected, some pretty dece thoughts. the one i latched on to most was the fact that if we lead humble lives we do so unnaturally, or the idea that we are naturally prideful as human beings. a stunning reality for me, and one that gave me a great deal of comfort. i’m not a very humble person, but my humility abounds in comparison to the self-centered life i’ve led in the past. i’m getting better, but just as we will never reach the apex of knowledge in life we will also never reach the apex of humility. we are unnaturally humble. we can strive for it all we like, but we will never achieve it to perfection. but that is good news because while one could see the glass half empty and say, “well, why try then?” another might see it more positively and realize that this is an amazing opportunity. while we will always be somewhat prideful, we can always arrive at a greater level of humility in our lives. that is good news.

the speakers, Louie Giglio, in particular, also drove home the importance of overseas missions, primarily to the unreached people of the world. a lot of the emphasis in the talks was that we should not become complacent in our Johnson County Lifestyle (my words, not theirs), but that instead we have a calling to preach. we have a duty to tell the world about Jesus Christ, and i thought both Louie and John Piper landed that point well. however, i was a little frustrated at the same time, i felt like they emphasized overseas missions nearly too much and failed to include the fact that everyone has their own mission field in their own town. i had a lengthy conversation with one of my best friends, Dan, about this. Both of us believe that everyone has their own mission field everywhere they go, and that the engineers, accountants, construction workers, teachers, and the whatevers all have their own area of influence as well. i felt like that point was missed along the way. i’m going into youth ministry soon, and even i felt a little guilt for not reaching out to the Della people of northern Iraq or the Muslims in Indonesia or whoever else hasn’t heard the gospel. it was a message that needed to be presented and a message that needed to be heard, but i think a side note touching on the fact that not all of us are called to be long term missionaries would have been nice.

anyway. it was a really awesome trip and i still haven’t come close to unpacking everything though (especially Piper’s talk and Francis Chan’s). i’m now reading Crowder’s first book Praise Habit too. so look forward to a review of that dandy. lovin it so far.

but i now must go and attempt to eat dinner out at the Q without wisdom teeth. yesss.

-ap.

>saddam

>i’m finding this whole Saddam Hussein hanging rather strange, and as is the case in most situations, i’m not exactly sure where i stand. on one hand i want to say, “yes. kill the man. he was a murderer in the 80’s and deserves to be punished.” but at the same time i sit and think, “since when was killing someone ever kosher?”

two wrongs don’t make a right. thats what i was always taught, and as difficult as it is to apply such a childish lesson to such a not-so-childish event…why shouldn’t it hold true? if the man deserves to be punished then he needs to be punished, but who besides God has the authority to say who deserves to die? how can someone justly kill another life. justice? sure. does he deserve it? i just don’t know. i simply can’t come to terms with the fact that a man was justly hanged. i dunno. maybe i’m just a pansy, but i’m not a fan of killing.

even if the man is responsible for x number of deaths – i’m not sure it is necessary.

i’m probably just naive.

-ap.